what comes to mind...

a little perhaps? XD! I'm going to lay off for a bit. things come and go. left and right. party out of sight ppppaaarrrty! XD lol...

what comes to my mind right now. I don't know! it's funny...it's your body, and yourself and yet..you kind of thinking who am I? it just makes me want to laugh because it's true an everyday it amazes me at how something inside of you is practically moving everyday. like you heart, for example, it will not stop beating until the day you die. when you sleep, it'll keep on beating. without it, your cheeks wouldn't blush, you wouldn't bleed...I'm getting off topic, but THIS is what comes to mind. XD

Do I overthink? A lot. Why? Who doesn't...everyone does, but sometimes..sometimes others try and shake it and make a fool of themselves and tell others that it's not worth their time at all...there's so many things that you could think about. ANYTHING!

Relationships..it's not important to some people. they don't need it. they don't care about it. that's why people tend to play around and wheel..god knows how many they are. I'LL BE HONEST..I'm too playful. REALLY playful..and it's not going too good, considering my girlfriend is like reading this at the moment. Ohh boy, i hope she's not like vein popping and clench gripping mode at the moment. I'll talk to her. I will. She trusts me. does she? No, I'll still have to prove to her that I can be trusted...little by little...

I love her.
Everyday she's just like right there on my mind and she's smiling and and..and..i can't stop. I don't want it to stop. let her play in my mind all day because she's really there...sometimes I overthink of the future: What's going to happen? Will it still be us? How will she think of me then? She's not getting tired of this, isn't she...there's more to it than that. we're working on it..
Somtimes..I worry if she'll ever accept the other side of me. I'm too afraid of that. She told me, "I don't deserve you if I don't like the worst of you..." but really, I don't. I really don't deserve this kind of love from her. she's just too amazing and she has dreams that she wants to do, and what am I...I want her to reach those because and I know she'll make it. She will. I know she will...I don't want her to see the worst of me, I try and give her the best of me because really, she wouldn't want that. I'll hurt her...

Mind
The Mind. The brain, the subconcious of you and the little being inside of you heard that talks to you when you're bored. Hahaha. I created a little dialogue in my head. it's about this couple. want to hear?!

Girl:.....
Boy: What's the matter?
Girl: I..I don't know. it's fine. don't worry.
Boy: Liar
Girl: ....
Boy: What are you thinking about?
Girl: ...i'm scared..
Boy: of..?
Girl: I don't want to lose you and it's been in my head for so long, and I can't. I don't want it.
Boy:....

HOLD IT! THIS IS TOO LONG! D:< MY LEFT HAND HURTS. LET ME JUST SAY THIS NOW IN PROPER ENGRISH~ XD!

"Baby, I don't know why you're doing this to yourself. I know the future is scaring us now. we control our future. we mak things happen today, so that way we have a future. Feelings change, yes...I'm afraid too. You have no idea. but please..let me..let me say that I'm not going to leave you. I will prove you wrong, we can do this..."
"Don't leave me..."
and then I see them hugging in the night and the poor girl holding tightly on the guy's chest and the guy's trying not to cry because he's a man. he doesn't cry...I beg to differ, it's okay to cry. XD

it's 12:30 now. I should've been asleep. That lesbian better not read this. she's going to be soo pissed. ms.worrywart...lol. ohh man.

I just wish that god, or whoever people tend to believe in, could just allow others to know how you really feel. even for just once...I mean wouldn't that really help a bit of our time. I want to feel what others feel, i don't care how strong it is. I want to be there! I want to laugh with someone, I'll cry with someone and even get anrgy with someone...I mean no matter how much you aant you to. I'm willing to see it.

...i'm starting to overthink again, and this time it's really bothering me. Maybe I should go and rest and come back later. plus, my left hand is hurting. my right is sort of taking a break. hahaha. i can raise it up a litte, but then it's like..ohh my god...i'll be back.