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LOL. it's late. i can't sleep and the fucking script is on pandora. I decided to try and make a gay story out of it. Sorry for the grammar, the transitions, run-ons, context blah blah blah.. like i said, i'm not a writer. :l


I solemnly look around the place. The bed a mess and a few beer bottles scattered around I ruffled my hair and walked towards the bathroom door. I glanced myself on the mirror and leaned against the sink. The throbbing pain of a hang over came to and I groaned in pain...

-flashback-

"Hey, easy there buddy. You sure you're alright? You shouldn't drink anymore you're fucking drunk." Jake grabbed my shoulder reassuringly.

"Yeah man. Come on now." Rick held me up as I came tumbling down the steps

"Shut the fuck nnn...you don't understand." I pushed them away from me as I came to, holding onto the railings and fences that we passed by. They gave each other worried glances. I stumbled to the bridge as passerbys walk past me laughing. I shook my head. I stagged and leaned onto the rails and yelled: ----------!!!!!!

Jake and Rick ran up to me, stumbling too trying to pull me away from the rails.

I blacked out after that...

I stared again at the person in the mirror and sighed. "Fuck." I muttered. Walked out and lay in bed, grabbing the phone I dialed her number.

*beep*.........

I sighed and turned to a picture of us..

She said nothing..

Life

Still don't know what to do yet. Undecided.

How's being an elementary teacher sound? Teach 2nd grade or something. No way, I'm a male. likely, they'd look at me as a pedophile. :l though, i do want to teach kids and all..

A photographer? I get to travel around places, meet people, do special events.. That would be nice.

A chef? I'm not really haven't decided.. I love to cook and do baking.
I wouldn't mind coming home and cook. My wife would be all: "thank you." and i'll be all: girl, i just made you a sandwich. It's okay.

A counselor.. :/ lol. I'm not even good at talking to people when you just met them nor start a conversation. xD!

A man in a tie in a very successful company :3 lmao. that sounds nice..

Damn, i just wish there's a job where you can travel the world, meet new people and talk and take pictures while cooking and baking stuff around the world. Get paid to sleep and eat and do nothing. nothing hard.. just simple things. xD!

That's some job. :l sadly, it's not true nor there ever will be. It's LIFE

It's normal..

I wish there was some way where you can just see the future and look at what you've become and how are you doing then you'd be settled and worry free. You won't have to dread things.. but sadly, your future is based on your choices and how you deal of today. It really sucks.. I just want to get this over with.

There's nothing we can do. Nothing. It goes on. All of this.. This is life.

bang.

Day 3 being homebound. :l

eh..

i don't know now. I thought I had it all figured out. What ia going on. Why do you do this to me world..
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Just let it go, kid. Just let it go

..

I don't fucking understand this shit. Don't let me fucking go through this shit all over again. I'm so fucking tired of this. I'm serious, I don't know why this happens to me. I shake my head for it because it bothers me alot. I'm so tired. Very very tired. It makes me fucking want to grab a gun and shoot myself.

Oh man. Pathetic. Stupid Stupid.

No. please don't say that. That's fucking bad. You shouldn't. You won't. Too fast. Too quick..

"Oh sometimes love's intoxicating
Oh you're coming down your hands are shaking
When you realise there's no one waiting"

LOL. fuck you Richard