Summer

Almost summmer. the warm breeze from the gulf hitting us. the tempreture rises to a scorching hot, sweaty day. but it's okay. that's the beauty of summer. she's back to let us feel her, smell her. just being around her makes everyone smile. the perfect season to just get away from it all. everyone has their own time for themselves to be free from work, school and even family. everything is yours for the taking.
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Summer is pretty much the season where students, working people have a break on thier own before going back to work and start from scratch all over again. I mean, being a teenager, summer is the only season that understands that BREAK comes first and that everything esle doesn't matter! Summer makes everyone come together!
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two lovers plan on going on an adventure together. after a long and excruciating pain of working, they can finally just relax and spend some time together. alone. a romantic getaway to a beach, perhaps? how about around the world? How about camping? nothing beats that!




I don't know. Summer is mostly my getaway from everything. just forgetting about school and just being blaah. I like sleep and wake up everyday and smile knowing that school wouldn't be starting two months from summer and that everyday I can sleep and be lazy for two months without anyone knowing. I would love to go somewhere and visit places, but...i'm too lazy! hopefully soon! I'd like to work out and do exercises! I want to get a bit swoll and taller that way i'll be okay. :D!

Summer, i love you. don't leave us again, okay? stay.

reflections of a skyline

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I want to play hide-and-seek and give you my clothes and tell you I like your shoes and sit on the steps while you take a bath and massage your neck and kiss your feet and hold your hand and go for a meal and not mind when you eat my food and meet you at Rudy's and talk about the day and type your letters and carry your boxes and laugh at your paranoia and give you tapes you don't listen to and watch great films and watch terrible films and complain about the radio and take pictures of you when you're sleeping and get up to fetch you coffee and bagels and Danish and go to Florent and drink coffee at midnight and have you steal my cigarettes and never be able to find a match and tell you about the the programme I saw the night before and take you to the eye hospital and not laugh at your jokes and want you in the morning but let you sleep for a while and kiss your back and stroke your skin and tell you how much I love your hair your eyes your lips your neck your breasts your arse your
and sit on the steps smoking till your neighbour comes home and sit on the steps smoking till you come home and worry when you're late and be amazed when you're early and give you sunflowers and go to your party and dance till I'm black and be sorry when I'm wrong and happy when you forgive me and look at your photos and wish I'd known you forever and hear your voice in my ear and feel your skin on my skin and get scared when you're angry and your eye has gone red and the other eye blue and your hair to the left and your face oriental and tell you you're gorgeous and hug you when you're anxious and hold you when you hurt and want you when I smell you and offend you when I touch you and whimper when I'm next to you and whimper when I'm not and dribble on your breast and smother you in the night and get cold when you take the blanket and hot when you don't and melt when you smile and dissolve when you laugh and not understand why you think I'm rejecting you when I'm not rejecting you and wonder how you could think I'd ever reject you and wonder who you are but accept you anyway and tell you about the tree angel enchanted forest boy who flew across the ocean because he loved you and write poems for you and wonder why you don't believe me and have a feeling so deep I can't find words for it and want to buy you a kitten I'd get jealous of because it would get more attention than me and keep you in bed when you have to go and cry like a baby when you finally do and get rid of the roaches and buy you presents you don't want and take them away again and ask you to marry me and you say no again but keep on asking because though you think I don't mean it I do always have from the first time I asked you and wander the city thinking it's empty without you and want want you want and think I'm losing myself but know I'm safe with you and tell you the worst of me and try to give you the best of me because you don't deserve any less and answer your questions when I'd rather not and tell you the truth when I really dont' want to and try to be honest because I know you prefer it and think it's all over but hang on in for just ten more minutes before you throw me out of your life and forget who I am and try to get closer to you because it's a beautiful learning to know you and well worth the effort and speak German to you badly and Hebrew to you worse and make love with you at three in the morning and somehow somehow somehow communicate some of the overwhelming undying overpowering unconditional all-encompassing heart-enriching mind-expanding on-going never-ending love I have for you

I wish and want.,.

I want to climb the tallest mountain. I want to dance all night. I want to stay up the whole day and still be hyper the next. I want to sleep in the rain. I want to go somwehere far. I want to watch the stars all night and watch the moon move as the clock reaches a specific time. I want to know everyone in the world. I want to cast shadows in the light. I want to fly an airplane. I want to drive a car. I want to scare little kids. I want to race an olympian. I want to chase the bees and them chasing me. I want to swim (but i can't). I wish to breathe underwater. I want to search for buried treasure. I want to travel under the depths of the ocean. I want to travel to the moon. I want to travel space. I wish I can fly. I wish I was superman. I want to be fat. I want to be thin. I want to super thin. I want to laugh. I want to cry. I want to get high. I want to get sober. I want to be excited. I want to have a house. I want to have a family. I want the things she wants. I want the things he wants. I want the world. I want peace. I wish for peace. I want to be the rain. I want to be the snow. I want to be the sun's ray. I want to be someone's smile. I want to be that mole on your face. I want to be that annoying hair that's always sticking up. I want to be somebody else. I want to be the sun. I wish for the world to be clean. I want to be a baby. I want to be old. I want to be a boyfriend. I want to be a best friend. I want to be a lover. I want to be a husband. I want to be a dad. I want three kids. I want that someone to have a perfect wedding. I want a romantic honeymoon. I want to go on trips. I want to travel the world in 80 days. I want to go to different places. I want to taste exotic foods. I want to eat durian without gagging on the smell. I wish I was 5'11. I want to be tall. I want to be short. I wish I was disabled. I want to be mute. I want to be blind. I want to be left-handed. I wish Ambidextrous. I want to see the world. I want to feel the world's pain. I wish world hunger would stop. I want to get AIDS. I want to have cancer. I want to sneeze. I wish to be successful, no..I want to be succesful. I want to be smart. I want to be dumb. I want to be a genius. I wish I was the one to find the cure for cancer. I want to hold a baby. I want to hug a depressed man or woman. I want to change someone. I want to prove somsone wrong. I wish I can win on something. I want to leave. I want to stay. I want to re-live the moment. I want to to live 300 years and see the world change and watch my love ones grow. I want to travel to time. I want to see emily. I wish emily was here. I want to love her. I want to hold her. I want everything she wants. I wish I was me. I wish I was her.....I want to be hers. :)

Wants and Wishes. they're not different. You can obtain things. It's never possible. nothing is impossible. if you are determined to do so, you can accomplish anything. anything in this world. you can. have faith and be happy.

5 things fell

Emily

How long was it. 5 years? Where? GaiaOnline. I pulled a tab and logged on to my old account, and smiled at how many messages I have with "Sweet". I remembered she was trying to find a suitable name for her band. finally they named it band Winky's Willy, and how..she was watching a movie in surround sound and scared her completely and also waking up her mom up...she told me about her boyfriend, her cookies and her the jokes that she and I used to do together..


She's a friend, a best friend, she's someone you can trust. You can always count on her, although she forgets, she tries her best to do things her way. You can laugh, cry and even just do whatever you want with her. She's truly amazing...When you need tips about girls, she's there to give some out. When a guy has trouble, she's there...you have a problem, she has a solution. her friends call her crazy, but truly...she's that friend you can always lean on and someone you can always be yourself and not be judge because that's who she is...

She's a lover. She smiles sweetly at you and makes things too bright. She's ordinary, plain and simple...but with dreams of beooming someone. She takes you by the hand and lays in bed with you and listens to you sleeping. She whispers comforting words when troubled and laughs when you say something awkward. she's trusting, she's loving, she's emily.

She's not perfect. She's nothing special. She's just like the rest of us in this world, yet...she's one in a million that makes everyone happy for the way she is, and nothing makes it more better than her. through thick and thin, she's always there.
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her ideals, her passion, her mind, how great it is to listen to her think and wonder about everything that comes to her mind. I want what she wants.

though..there are some problems. I love what she hates, I worry when she's hurt. She worries, I push her away. when she's sad, I worry and cheer her up. When i'm sad, i leave. complete opposites, and yet..working together because our feelings are mutual.

Muruwa became Paolo, Sweet became Emily. :)

Do what you want and I will support you.
Be strong. if you can't be strong, i'll bere to make you stronger
If you want love, I'll give you ALL my love
I respect you. I do.
I love you.
Happy Birthday. :D

what comes to mind...

a little perhaps? XD! I'm going to lay off for a bit. things come and go. left and right. party out of sight ppppaaarrrty! XD lol...

what comes to my mind right now. I don't know! it's funny...it's your body, and yourself and yet..you kind of thinking who am I? it just makes me want to laugh because it's true an everyday it amazes me at how something inside of you is practically moving everyday. like you heart, for example, it will not stop beating until the day you die. when you sleep, it'll keep on beating. without it, your cheeks wouldn't blush, you wouldn't bleed...I'm getting off topic, but THIS is what comes to mind. XD

Do I overthink? A lot. Why? Who doesn't...everyone does, but sometimes..sometimes others try and shake it and make a fool of themselves and tell others that it's not worth their time at all...there's so many things that you could think about. ANYTHING!

Relationships..it's not important to some people. they don't need it. they don't care about it. that's why people tend to play around and wheel..god knows how many they are. I'LL BE HONEST..I'm too playful. REALLY playful..and it's not going too good, considering my girlfriend is like reading this at the moment. Ohh boy, i hope she's not like vein popping and clench gripping mode at the moment. I'll talk to her. I will. She trusts me. does she? No, I'll still have to prove to her that I can be trusted...little by little...

I love her.
Everyday she's just like right there on my mind and she's smiling and and..and..i can't stop. I don't want it to stop. let her play in my mind all day because she's really there...sometimes I overthink of the future: What's going to happen? Will it still be us? How will she think of me then? She's not getting tired of this, isn't she...there's more to it than that. we're working on it..
Somtimes..I worry if she'll ever accept the other side of me. I'm too afraid of that. She told me, "I don't deserve you if I don't like the worst of you..." but really, I don't. I really don't deserve this kind of love from her. she's just too amazing and she has dreams that she wants to do, and what am I...I want her to reach those because and I know she'll make it. She will. I know she will...I don't want her to see the worst of me, I try and give her the best of me because really, she wouldn't want that. I'll hurt her...

Mind
The Mind. The brain, the subconcious of you and the little being inside of you heard that talks to you when you're bored. Hahaha. I created a little dialogue in my head. it's about this couple. want to hear?!

Girl:.....
Boy: What's the matter?
Girl: I..I don't know. it's fine. don't worry.
Boy: Liar
Girl: ....
Boy: What are you thinking about?
Girl: ...i'm scared..
Boy: of..?
Girl: I don't want to lose you and it's been in my head for so long, and I can't. I don't want it.
Boy:....

HOLD IT! THIS IS TOO LONG! D:< MY LEFT HAND HURTS. LET ME JUST SAY THIS NOW IN PROPER ENGRISH~ XD!

"Baby, I don't know why you're doing this to yourself. I know the future is scaring us now. we control our future. we mak things happen today, so that way we have a future. Feelings change, yes...I'm afraid too. You have no idea. but please..let me..let me say that I'm not going to leave you. I will prove you wrong, we can do this..."
"Don't leave me..."
and then I see them hugging in the night and the poor girl holding tightly on the guy's chest and the guy's trying not to cry because he's a man. he doesn't cry...I beg to differ, it's okay to cry. XD

it's 12:30 now. I should've been asleep. That lesbian better not read this. she's going to be soo pissed. ms.worrywart...lol. ohh man.

I just wish that god, or whoever people tend to believe in, could just allow others to know how you really feel. even for just once...I mean wouldn't that really help a bit of our time. I want to feel what others feel, i don't care how strong it is. I want to be there! I want to laugh with someone, I'll cry with someone and even get anrgy with someone...I mean no matter how much you aant you to. I'm willing to see it.

...i'm starting to overthink again, and this time it's really bothering me. Maybe I should go and rest and come back later. plus, my left hand is hurting. my right is sort of taking a break. hahaha. i can raise it up a litte, but then it's like..ohh my god...i'll be back.

Does he love her?

He follows along and listens to her telling him her day.

Does he love her?

She argues and makes a scene, yet he agrees that he's wrong and say she's right.

Does he love her?

He kisses her and holds her.

Does he love her?

He greets her everyday and tells her sweet dreams at night.

Does he love her?

He pushes her away when he's not feeling well and tells her that he's okay so she wouldn't worry.

Does he love her?

He pulls her close when she's down and keeps her there and doesn't make a sound.

Does he love her?

He tells her that she's only one for him.

Does he love her?

He whispers to her ears and kisses her neck, holding her cheeks and smother in the night.

Does he love her?

He sighs when she's away.

Does he love her?

He looks and stares at his phone to see she texts back.

Does he love her?