Gut

You never fail me, lol.

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I always end up being the match maker after. Maybe it's my final push to make her and him settle their differences and take it up another chance.

But what about me..? What about me. Oh no, I'm fine. I'll be fine. I'll learn to be happy by myself...

I don't want to hurt you. No more. I'm sick and tired. You say I'm not hurting you but the truth is right under your nose. Yet again, another lesson to be learned and another failure.

Oh god, why now..? Why are you doing this to me.

3 ways to express what's done is done.

Welp.

Shogan-ai.

Hoho.

C'est la vie.

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Bahala na..

B to E

I read the messages from beginning to today and figure out what makes the relationship stay at a stand still. What happened...?
Do people really have to excuse themselves out of your lives and come back in 2-4 years time and see if it still works? Do they really have to stay away?

Reading the messages it made me see that we were being cute, silly and awkward. But now, single sentences. Not even texting. seeing you online and talking to some other guy, lol. Come on now.. why does it have to be like this?

I've grown this habit of seeing first hand of the future and what's going to happen. We're done. We're over. I'm not going to say it because I refuse to give up. I'm willing to try over and over again to bring that fire again.. But if you're going to do it, then by all means do it.. I'll understand. Slowly.

Stupid

Stop putting yourself in that situation again. I believe that you're going to take a step back and realize how much of a fool you are.. it's not worth it. This isn't worth it. She's never going to stop.

It was over when it even began. No trust. No communication just doubts and fear. Isn't it grand..

New Year

Hello, it's been awhile. I've broken my promise to keep you updated. I'm sorry. I was going through a lot these couple of months. Oh by the way, Happy New Year and that umm, it's 2013. No Zombies. No riots. No Anarchy. We're all fine, haha.

I just miss you. I hope you're doing fine. I'll try to come on just for you, blogspot..