How hard

How hard can it be?
Everyday I wake up through the same shit with a different day. I'm giving up.
Tired of lies, tired of the yells, Plastic smiles and shit. I take things for granted. Okay. Great. Smack that on my face why don't you..

Let's all be selfish, mom.

I'm not perfect. but hey.. if it makes you feel better.. i'm pushing away.

18 years ain't bad. :) pretty good. no regrets. just some time..

how to escape.. we'll see. XD!

I give up.

I though I was stronger than this. I'm actually pathetic and weak. :( thisbis troublesome. :(

I don't know it happened today. I thought I was done with this..
I left my medicine at home and had a mini headache. I felt another attack and I could've died the doctors said.
I should keep my medicine close to me now. :/

Who can I really trust when I'm ready to open up?

Fuck.

I don't understand how you could change from being this sweet person and then the next you message me saying I don't trust you.

I have no idea why you'd say that. I didn't do anything wrong. I'm sorry i'm not fucking perfect bro. I wish I can take it all back, you know? I'm just talking and goofing off with this person and you take it too seriously.. and you ignore me and I try to apologize.

Perfect. XD! Oh.. opening up to you was the best but.. I guess we don't always get what we want. sucks. fuck this.. why do i even try, you know?

I'm such a oathetic guy. lmo.