Remember

He sits on the rocking chair, smacking his lips together. the weary black eyes of his, lingers on, scanning the surroundings around him. he smiles just rocking himself away.

"Hello stranger," A woman's voice appeared from behind "Aren't you cold?" She walks beside of him and settles a hand on the man's shoulders. he turns his head and looks at the woman. the woman who has stood by him for 40 years. He smiles at her and takes her hand, leads her to her own seat.

"I'm not cold. I'm fine." He sneezes, the woman frowns.
"I don't believe you."
"you never do.." he lets out a chuckle and stares into her eyes, he grabs her hands again and kisses them, rubbing them to his, he sees her lips turn to a smile and looks back to the lawn and smiles....

"Do you remember when we were young and everything we could ever think about was just ourselves and we didn't care about anyone else?" the man lets out a chuckle
"Do you remember when I told you we wouldn't make it and yet you proved me wrong?" the lady smiles back, tightly sqeezing his hands.
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"I'm still proving it to you." he says, he turns around and holds her face, carressing her cheeks "I'm not stopping."
"All these years..you really stayed. I doubted you. I'm so ashamed." She rests her head on his hands, holding his hands to her cheek, closing her eyes. "I love you.."

"You don't have to be ashamed. We made it, didn't we? I love you very much. We have three wonderful children who are succcessful. It was the hardest trial of our lives, we made it. we pulled through. We had a lot problems, I wasn't too fatherly around them, I was so worked up about work. I was aiming for the best because I needed to support this family...BUT really, you deserve everything. All these years you've put up with me, you still amaze me withe evrything you do. though we're old and weary now, you're still the same girl that I was with since back. You're still my best friend today, my lover everyday, and a wife throughout...you didn't stop believing me, you supported me. you tutored me to grow."
He stops for a moment and looks at her, she smiles warmly at him, tears streaks down her face. he wipes rgem away and smiles at her. She stands up, she leads him back to the door, with the cane in hand, he stands and follows suit. Into the house they went...

Staying

Will you stay with me?

Carressing my cheek, looking up at me, I look at her and nod, her cold hands with mine. I smile and let out a sigh, kissing her hands, kissing her cheek

She lets out a giggle, and looks at me. She bites her lip and she looks at me again and asks

Will you..please?

I rest my forehead against hers, i look at her deeply...I remained silent, our breathings in sync. I closed my eyes and I whispered soft, loving words to her that she may only hear.

Yet my answers are plain, she still worries about me leaving. I fear the same. She has no idea how important she is to me. I love her with all my heart. I worry, I go insane without her..

I love you. Stay.

I squeezed her hands tightly and pulled her into a loving kiss. I pulled away for a moment, I see her eyes twinkling. I wiped away the small tears and reassured her. I let out a smile, and she smiles warmly at me.

"Marry me.." I looked at her

She shakes her head and held my head to her chest. I let out a chuckle.

I'm staying. I am. Just hold on to me.

Hold-James Maginadaw

Her

A Boy's perspective towards the love his life as he progresses to be a man and as he gets older, he begins to realize the love and undying support from her and how at how many years have passed, he still holds on to her
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There she is. damn she's beautiful. look at her. her smile, her body, her tits. mmm..i can't just believe that girl is mine. i swear, i'm the luckiest guy in the world to have her with me. she's always there for me, and no matter what...i don't know what I would do without her. I'm not sure if i'm the right boyfriend for her, she's so smart and talented. She has a lot of dreams that would go to waste if she's with me..how am I going to have that...yet, she says she loves me and wants me to stay with her. I will hold on to that promise, baby..I will...
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Wow, she's so beautiful...her white dress. she's walking my way, I want to hug her and kiss her over and over, she stayed. she really did. we made it...i love her..
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There she is again, look at her, beautiful as always. her loving smile plasteered on her face, her eyes glistening with love. I know she's tired from last night with the kids, and I know she's ready to fall. After all these years of being together, the same girl that I met 20 years ago is here with me. Though weary and old, i can say, I am the luckiest man in this world to have such a loving and wonderful wife by his wide. I really owe it to her. I love her very much, and now..our love bore us 3 loving and hyper active children.
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The kids are gone, they're off to face their own lives. I smiled sweetly beside me as I watched the woman who's been with me for nearly 30 years, her once black hair now gray and shrivled, she's still the most beautiful woman in my life. She smiles at me and thanks me for everything that I've done for our family, I should be the one thanking her for staying with me all these years, putting up with me..being the divine being, a mother, a lover and a wife....and now, it's time for us to rest...I will always love this woman..
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Mom and Dad passed away 2 years ago. Who knew Dad kept a journal about Mom all this time. it's kind of funny at how he writes his journal, yet romantic of him to do so. Mom really loved Dad, he was always sweet and kind to her, always supporting her and holding her...Dad's really quiet when something is wrong, but Mom always has her ways of him to open up. Those two are always a couple..and you're right Dad, you DO love Mom.
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Always

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what's stopping someone from everything that they hope for and dream about. i mean in this world, people are straight out selfish and opinionated. truth. life is nothing without the real value of accepting defeat. false...love, what is love? it's not those corny, "oh it's a never ending river..." ohh how nice, how nice. it's truly a beutiful feeling to be loved, to know that somsone accepts you for you and won't resent you because of it. BUT why? why? why with the possibilities and doubts. though young and old it doesn't matter, we're facing the same deal.

"would you leave me?"
"I won't..."
"Will you let me stay with you?"
"Can I keep you forever..?"

Those. those quotes, loving, unconditional quotes that i'm holding on because I, too. love someone. saying it could mean obselete. proving it can do something about it, and do you think i'm going to stop then and there? absolutely not. Yes, we fall. we stand, we learn from those mistakes and try to make a better recover, so that you will not encounter the same problem. it's just the truth.

the doubts, i don't know. it's life, we think. we over think the POSSIBILITIES that that life gives us. it's not just one because a probability could mean like 900 combinanations, and each and every combinations consist an outcome that can change a bit, a little or BIIIIG in the future. our future. we're here, in the present, tomorrow is just there...we're only building a foundation...

I love you

"I love you.."
"do you really?"
"Yes, yes I do.."
"Prove it.."
"How?"
"Just prove it.."
"I really don't understand why I have to. you can't prove love."
"Yes, yes you can. prove to me that you love me."
"I can't prove it, but I can show it.."
"then show it to me."
"I can't show it, you have to feel it."
"make me feel it."

"you make me smile, you make me laugh, you make me cry and you make me weak. I show fear when you're with some other guy, and when you're with them, I hope that you're okay. I worry when you're sick, I cry when you cry, I love what you love, I hate what you hate...NOT really. haha..I feel when you're angry and you hold my arm. you look at me when you want something. I smile when you frown, not because I smile at your sadness, it's because I want you to smile...you love what I love, you hate what I love. we're opposite, but that doesn't stop me. I love you...I can't prove you that I love you, I can only prove to you that I am here for you and only you...."

".....I don't...do you really love me?"

"baby, you're my life.."
"..I love you..I love you so much.. _____"
"I'll love you forever.."

Music

Music. music is the key to everything, a baby's cry is C natural or sharp, a lady's cry is always a flat or sharp, or everyone is..
I mean..study shows that letting an unborn child listen to music while the baby is still within the womb can show they're probability of becoming successful. it's music, and it's a never, on-going passion for it.

Now, have you wondered if music can also influence the why you are? I mean i can give out examples. when i was only 13 or so, I used to listen to Japanese Rock and Pop, I wore anime clothes, acted nerdy and dressed awkwardly. I was always talking about anime, and whenever it revolves around it, furthermore, i came to realize that my life revolved around being asian and my pride for being one made it impossible for me to be socially active to other race. it was a stupid outcome, and i managed to limit it. XD!

Now, as I became more and more transfixed outside of that. i became to be hyperactive and sorrounded with thousands of loving people. friends and family. surprisingly, i'm always up to listen anything that comes out of a radion, or a friend introducing me to newer bands.

I think Music can influence you by the way you are and shape up your points. don't you think?

Promise

"Will you be there...?"
"Yes, I'll be there. I promise."

Never ever say I promise if you don't really mean it because REALLY you're trying to make it worse. especially to your special someone..

Alone

I looked at the photos that I've kept. Our smiles plastered on the piece of paper, her eyes full of enthusiasm. I sighed, throwing it away. holding my head, i let out a tremndous sigh....

how could you?

I didn't know what I did...I..don't know what I've done to deserve this..

what was this about?

A rusted blade appears before my eyes, it lays there, calling out to me. I looks at the my wrists. it has been so long....

I loved you soo..

I grabbed the blade, and placed it onto my flesh...the memories of you play in my head, our laughter, our smiles, our cries. those unbearable moments with you...I slit the blade onto me, letting out a grunt. I watched as blood starts trickling down my arms.

I waited for my eternal slumber....

Dreams

Have you ever dreamed about something, just anything! out of the ordinary, and all of a sudden..you see people, people you don't know and just appear in your dreams? It's like..well, my theory is that..we're all linked! :) no, i'm serious. it's like..you dream about something unique, like an event of a lifetime, then all of a sudden..you meet these people..you don't know them, not one bit.

of course, our brain is the most sensitive and the most con of all. it creates images and tricks that are too hard to pick on, but listen...

we're all link. i mean what if someone from another place is dreaming the same dream as you? it's like wi-fi! XD! like playing a game, our minds are link through each and individual. call me crazy, but it's really nice to think about it...

for example, i was dreaming about going to Canada and meeting two wonderful girls that are so important to me, and then the next day, i was told one of the girls was dreaming the exact same thing! :) through their own point of view...isn't it nice?

i'll leave it up to you!

no more

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Liar

i got called a liar.

lol. that's great..

5 centimeters per second

"Have you ever longed for someone"

"did you ever dream about someone?"

"touched a sparked?"

"reminsce the connection?"

Have you ever fell in love with such passion that no matter what you're willing to do the best of your ability to keep that spark at bay?

Are you willing to share yourself to the other half and show effort to be with that someone? Though how far he or she may be, would you? These questions come and go.

[I'll be loving you....]